Sejal at random

Okay, so I have again ghosted this blog for a while, but you know, just got so caught up into everything else that it just became an “on the back of my mind” thought. It just wasn't coming to the front which reminds me of many other things which didn't come to the front either. Like I said, I was too occupied. But for this blog, a really kind person decided to remind me that, hey, you have forgotten about the blog, and that they're waiting for a new post. But now, as I am writing this, I reckon what were other things that I didn't do when I was too caught up with the things at the front. And also the fact that I never really cared what was important and what was not I just went on doing what came to the front. Now that I think of it, what if the thoughts and things waiting for me at the back of my mind were the ones I should have focused on? You know, I get it live in the moment, you just have one life but yeah, that matters, right? I just have one life, an...

I am a seasonal being. Wait, I forgot to add human. So actually, I am a seasonal human being . What’s the difference, you ask? Well, a seasonal being changes every season, inside and outside. But a seasonal human being? Sometimes we change only on the outside. Sometimes, only on the inside. And sometimes both. The changes are constant. That’s just how life works. Seasonal beings understand that. Seasonal human beings… haven’t. But I think we will. The thing is change for us is still a shock. And the worst part?  We don’t have a defense ready. Apart from crying, of course. Which, again, is subjective. Because men "don’t cry" It makes them weak. And women are weak, so they cry. Or so we've been told. Some of us develop defenses, though they’re not always healthy taking it out on others, starving, bingeing, self-harm, even suicide. And some of us just exist while everything around us keeps changing. We tell ourselves we’re excited about change. We admire other se...

                      “Is It Love or Am I Just Gambling?” “Last night, I woke up to a nagging feeling . the sense that I wasn’t worthy of anything. But then it dawned on me love wasn’t the problem. I’d given as much as I could, but I never received it back. Was I gambling, waiting for the roulette to stop on you loving me, hoping to win and receive love in return? Turns out I wasn’t gambling; I was hoping that this gamble would somehow pay off, and I’d win. I was ready to take the risk. Is it love? No, it’s not. The butterflies were there since you caught my eye, but the racing heartbeats and nervous eyes are still waiting to happen. So, I can say I’m ready for love. Again, I ask, Is this love or am I gambling? Well, I’m waiting, ready for love, so I can gamble and win. Will I win? What if I lose? Time will tell. Till then, stay tuned...    

                                Being a woman in this world... Before I start, I want to clear this out: I am not here to cry for equality. I also want to mention that I neither support nor criticize any ideology in particular. This blog post is about my own thoughts on being a woman in this world. It feels really powerful to be a woman. I can bring a whole new human into this world. Not just that, I am also considered a goddess in many places. Many women before me fought, and today I am as empowered as I could be. I can go to school, college, get a job, work, and achieve my dreams. Do you know where the problem started? When women had to fight to get what men already had and deserved too. I am a goddess, and I know that. I am capable of many things, and I know that too. I am powerful, and I know that as well. But am I safe? I will never be able to say that until the day men no longer exist arou...

  The Love Dilemma ... Life is a pretty place to be in, Right ? It’s pretty but you know when all of your friends are in love, and have someone to talk to and about, Life seems pretty perfect for them, While it’s just pretty for you. Well, theoretically everybody has chance at love right ? So in reality why is it just me? Many times all of us have pondered upon this and wondered why don't I have someone. Well, I do I have myself came the motivational answer we gave ourselves,   Wait, but then they too have themselves and their special someone too. Is there some kind premium subscription at life that I didn’t get for myself and they have it ? Wait what's happening ? Am I looking for love? But the books say you find it when you stop looking for it. Okay I'm not looking for it I'm more towards liking it. But then why do I like the idea of love if I don't want it ? Okay, Maybe I do want it, Yess, the movies suggest that if you want something with enough ...

So, As the title suggests this blog is about my newly found obsession. Okay, well this obsession comes from my already existing obsession with plants. If you have read my first blog post you know what I am obsessed with and how biased I am towards plants and also How  I think everybody should love plants. Now, one obsession of mine with plants has led me to another one and trust me, it is amazing it might sound weird to you that Oh my God she’s talking about an obsession and saying that it is good. Yes, It is and to anybody who thinks being obsessed with something is wrong. You need to recheck the definition of obsession or how you perceive it to be. So taking it forward and not wasting much of our time let’s start with it . After being obsessed with plants and them being the centre of attraction of my life I am now obsessed somehow with identifying them.   To be very honest it all started for syllabus purposes to be able to know the scientific name...

This blog is big news to me or let me put it this way, this has been something that has consumed a lot of my mind. Well , if it wasn't for this question I maybe would have written many more poems but you know I am also like everybody else or maybe I am like this because of everybody else. If I don't do what they think I should do, I without any reason become the runt one. It's like I am not even the smallest or the weakest I just am not doing what others want me to and even if I be the rebel which right now I am kind of. How far am I going to go? is what everybody thinks. It is become quite far a narrative that if you don't think (actually wrong word it should be stress and overthink) about your career you are unambitious , not so goal oriented, lost in life and the chances of you ending up nowhere is more than the chances of the sun being in the sky during daytime. Look , I understand it's a competitive world with a ever growing population, inflation ...

                        The Plant Story Plants, What do I tell you about them? They are a story too long  finishing them in one poem, I would do them wrong, Well , yesterday I saw one peeping out of the concrete road, And here I was thinking about how I would never grow, I in that moment learnt from a plant, I took a deep breath that I yearned for , because of that plant, I looked around me and got to know about beauty because of a plant,  I sat on a bench and thought about it , the wood was from a plant, From there , I saw a chirping bird her home was a plant, I took out an apple to eat and realized again I got it from a plant. Then, the breeze touched my face and I saw that too was from a plant. Met someone new , he got me flowers those too were from a plant. I came home and took a glance doors , air , flowers , food and chair everywhere I was surrounded by plants, Today , I...

 This wasn't a planned post for this  month there was something else something more happy that I wanted to post. But this one I feel is important to me so I want to share it with you guys. Before, I move any forward I would like to state clearly that I am not a mental health professional and whatever I talk about here is basically going to be about my own experiences and thoughts about it. This is not the general anxiety post that is going to tell you it's okay and glamourize anxiety. See, We as humans are all anxious to some extent about something. There might not even be one person who can say that I have never been anxious about anything .So, it's a universal feeling but not a universal disorder. It is increasing at an alarming rate but it is not universal as a disorder. Once you start to explain people about it they just think you are worrying about things just worrying nothing else. They tell you to stop thinking and it will be okay but what nobody understa...

                          Break Up's Break up ! I've never had one, Don't look at me like that not like I've never been in love. I have but I never quite started to reach that point of break up, But , It hurts I know , it does, it hurts a lot, Well , They were in love mad for each other, Making each other laugh midst the chaos, The busy streets felt like empty country roads to them filled with flowers, Which they could pick and give to one another, Well one of them would pick those flowers with love and one them suddenly saw the busy streets and could no longer see the country roads filled with flowers. One them stood there with love and that flower and one of them couldn't see it anymore. Maybe that is why they broke up. One them was ready with their wings in set position to fly while one of them stood there with no wings helpless , Maybe that is why they broke up. One of them cou...

So this one is going to be the first post of my blog and I thought a lot about what should it be about . after thinking for a while and having a tiny fight with my own mind I came to the conclusion that it should be about the current center of attraction of my life . Something that I have always been fond of but lately I've been obsessed with it. Well , without any further ado let me tell you that this post is going to be about plants. Yes , you are right the green things around us. All throughout this post you will find me boasting about them as if they are mine but in real sense they are everybody's best  friends. Since school or maybe even at home as kids we have been taught how plants are selfless and how we should thank them. Also,  in my culture we have even been worshipping trees for centuries and decades. ( if you are from the west you are missing out on that part of value education). So, keeping my values and culture in mind I have always had immense res...