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“Is It Love or Am I Just Gambling?”


                     “Is It Love or Am I Just Gambling?”









“Last night, I woke up to a nagging feeling . the sense that I wasn’t worthy of anything. But then it dawned on me love wasn’t the problem. I’d given as much as I could, but I never received it back. Was I gambling, waiting for the roulette to stop on you loving me, hoping to win and receive love in return?

Turns out I wasn’t gambling; I was hoping that this gamble would somehow pay off, and I’d win. I was ready to take the risk.
Is it love? No, it’s not. The butterflies were there since you caught my eye, but the racing heartbeats and nervous eyes are still waiting to happen. So, I can say I’m ready for love.

Again, I ask, Is this love or am I gambling? Well, I’m waiting, ready for love, so I can gamble and win.
Will I win?
What if I lose?
Time will tell.
Till then, stay tuned...




















  

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