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I am a seasonal being

I am a seasonal being. Wait, I forgot to add human. So actually, I am a seasonal human being . What’s the difference, you ask? Well, a seasonal being changes every season, inside and outside. But a seasonal human being? Sometimes we change only on the outside. Sometimes, only on the inside. And sometimes both. The changes are constant. That’s just how life works. Seasonal beings understand that. Seasonal human beings… haven’t. But I think we will. The thing is change for us is still a shock. And the worst part?  We don’t have a defense ready. Apart from crying, of course. Which, again, is subjective. Because men "don’t cry" It makes them weak. And women are weak, so they cry. Or so we've been told. Some of us develop defenses, though they’re not always healthy taking it out on others, starving, bingeing, self-harm, even suicide. And some of us just exist while everything around us keeps changing. We tell ourselves we’re excited about change. We admire other se...

“Is It Love or Am I Just Gambling?”

                      “Is It Love or Am I Just Gambling?” “Last night, I woke up to a nagging feeling . the sense that I wasn’t worthy of anything. But then it dawned on me love wasn’t the problem. I’d given as much as I could, but I never received it back. Was I gambling, waiting for the roulette to stop on you loving me, hoping to win and receive love in return? Turns out I wasn’t gambling; I was hoping that this gamble would somehow pay off, and I’d win. I was ready to take the risk. Is it love? No, it’s not. The butterflies were there since you caught my eye, but the racing heartbeats and nervous eyes are still waiting to happen. So, I can say I’m ready for love. Again, I ask, Is this love or am I gambling? Well, I’m waiting, ready for love, so I can gamble and win. Will I win? What if I lose? Time will tell. Till then, stay tuned...